Manifesting. You in?

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Life is pretty incredible when you think about it.

You’re breathing.

Thousands of electrical and web-based services are aligning perfecting in order for you to see and read these words.

The sun is shining. You may not see it from where you are, but it is. Always.

And the thoughts you had last week, or last year are probably showing up as form for you today. Hmmmm…maybe I’ll keep this post first-person and say they are for me.

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My journey with manifesting, transforming thought energy into form, has been incredible. There are lots of folks out there with various definitions and processes and many have influenced my experience, but I’m careful not to take any One description over my own experience. This shit is the definition of subjective.

I choose to experience manifestation as a partnership with my guardian angels, higher (more evolved) Self(s) and sweet infusion of power that is the ether of the Universe. My life here on Plaent Earth, is simply a collaborative art project we’re creating together, but which I have the delight in orchestrating.

I get to manifest colds, happy days, wealth, walks in the park, poverty, cramps, orgasms, poetry, and millions of other experiences, behaviors and states of being. Outside of my life I contribute to the energetic states of others and what they are manifesting based solely on their agreement or disagreement with what I’m putting into their mind. For example, I have a pretty strong minded six-year-old son. Sometime, however, he does believe what I tell him about himself. For example, one day I tell him he is so messy. Over the course of the next few weeks he starts to believe it and makes more unapologetic mess. And after complaining about it, reminds me that I was the one that told him he was messy.

Right.

This is what manifestation looks like in my life, even within my own head. I used to have have an internal story in my mind (well ok, it still plays from time to time) that I was fat. No matter what the evidence told me, I knew my thighs were too wide, but belly too bouncy and my butt too …well actually I was ok with having a large arse.

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At my heaviest I weighed 175. Some would say that’s not so bad for an active woman in her thirties. But I was ashamed by it. Embarrassed. Frustrated. Slightly angry at my seemingly inability to not…buy…the…damn…gummies….again.

Whenever I focused on losing weight, I gained more. I tried dieting and expanded. I tried new workout routine (although I confess was never 100% committed) which failed. I tried just cutting out junk food, which didn’t last past my next menstrual cycle. So I went back to what works for me: writing.

I journaled for a few months exploring the reason why I held on to this weight. Why was I manifesting heaviness? How did the pounds serve me? Was I protecting myself from the outside world in some way? If so, what was I afraid of?

This exploration paid off. Once I found the core reason for why I was manifesting weight (for protection) and told myself I’m ready to let that go, it began to dissolve. Of course, not overnight…but within a few months I was 20 pounds lighter, without a simple change to diet or exercise.

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I share this story because manifesting is a gift. If we believe in the premise that we are creating our lives, then we have to accept that we created all of it. No that wasn’t easy to hear when I was diagnosed with epilepsy at 23. But it was empowering to utilize when I healed myself at 25 (seizure free since!).

Manifesting is an invitation to really explore what it is we think about our worth, our experience of balance in joy and in uncomfortable growth. I remember when nearly every area of my life felt like it was breaking down: my relationships, my finances, my profession (or lack thereof at that time), my sense of self. Yet there was one place I felt strong, in my ability to parent. And knowing that I felt strong and capable in that helped me to realign and trust myself (and my angel team) to rebuild my life.

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Today my life is incredible.

I have an awesome partner who adores me. Cucumbers growing in my garden. Delightful spaces to be vulnerable with those close to me. A gorgeous home with nourishing crystals. Financial security I only imagined was possible a few years ago. A deepening sense of awe for my self and this beautiful journey. And a break-dance loving little boy who delights in reminding me how to play.

Now it’s you’re turn. Tag! What are you manifesting today?

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3 thoughts on “Manifesting. You in?

  1. qemamumosaics says:

    Nina! That post was so welcoming and heartfelt. Each word resonated through the screen to me and I guess is what the universe is sending out to me right now. I have been and still going through a bit of an emotional roller coaster at the moment and searching for answers on how to move forward with love, grace and passion. The universe is directing me towards focus, order, planning, meditation. I was also reading a book by Dennis Kimbro and Napoleon Hill “Think and Grow Rich for Black Americans” and reading chapters which really echo what you have written in your post. I just wanted to thank you for Peace and for sharing your story. Blessings in abundance.Dionne Dionne Ible Mosaic Artist Tel: 07973 717564 http://www.qemamumosaics.com   Facebook: QemamuMosaics Twitter: @QemamuMosaics LinkedIn: Dionne Ible  Instagram: Mosaic_Dionne From: RE: peace To: qemamu@ymail.com Sent: Sunday, 16 August 2015, 17:29 Subject: [New post] Manifesting. You in? #yiv6245363547 a:hover {color:red;}#yiv6245363547 a {text-decoration:none;color:#0088cc;}#yiv6245363547 a.yiv6245363547primaryactionlink:link, #yiv6245363547 a.yiv6245363547primaryactionlink:visited {background-color:#2585B2;color:#fff;}#yiv6245363547 a.yiv6245363547primaryactionlink:hover, #yiv6245363547 a.yiv6245363547primaryactionlink:active {background-color:#11729E;color:#fff;}#yiv6245363547 WordPress.com | Nina posted: “Life is pretty incredible when you think about it.You’re breathing.Thousands of electrical and web-based services are aligning perfecting in order for you to see and read these words.The sun is shining. You may not see it from where you are,” | |

    • Thanks so much for the reflections Dionne! Grateful that the post resonated with you. I love your intentions for moving forward despite the rollar coaster. Truth that it will turn out for your good and it WILL! Never read that version of Hill’s classic, but sounds intriguing. Another goodie that you may appreciate is The Desire Map by Danielle Laporte. Fabulous book about basing your goals on how you want to feel. Similar principals to law of attraction, but keeping your focus on feelings rather than stuff. I have just finished it and am enjoying applying the principals to my life. All the best to you!!

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