Manifesting. You in?

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Life is pretty incredible when you think about it.

You’re breathing.

Thousands of electrical and web-based services are aligning perfecting in order for you to see and read these words.

The sun is shining. You may not see it from where you are, but it is. Always.

And the thoughts you had last week, or last year are probably showing up as form for you today. Hmmmm…maybe I’ll keep this post first-person and say they are for me.

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My journey with manifesting, transforming thought energy into form, has been incredible. There are lots of folks out there with various definitions and processes and many have influenced my experience, but I’m careful not to take any One description over my own experience. This shit is the definition of subjective.

I choose to experience manifestation as a partnership with my guardian angels, higher (more evolved) Self(s) and sweet infusion of power that is the ether of the Universe. My life here on Plaent Earth, is simply a collaborative art project we’re creating together, but which I have the delight in orchestrating.

I get to manifest colds, happy days, wealth, walks in the park, poverty, cramps, orgasms, poetry, and millions of other experiences, behaviors and states of being. Outside of my life I contribute to the energetic states of others and what they are manifesting based solely on their agreement or disagreement with what I’m putting into their mind. For example, I have a pretty strong minded six-year-old son. Sometime, however, he does believe what I tell him about himself. For example, one day I tell him he is so messy. Over the course of the next few weeks he starts to believe it and makes more unapologetic mess. And after complaining about it, reminds me that I was the one that told him he was messy.

Right.

This is what manifestation looks like in my life, even within my own head. I used to have have an internal story in my mind (well ok, it still plays from time to time) that I was fat. No matter what the evidence told me, I knew my thighs were too wide, but belly too bouncy and my butt too …well actually I was ok with having a large arse.

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At my heaviest I weighed 175. Some would say that’s not so bad for an active woman in her thirties. But I was ashamed by it. Embarrassed. Frustrated. Slightly angry at my seemingly inability to not…buy…the…damn…gummies….again.

Whenever I focused on losing weight, I gained more. I tried dieting and expanded. I tried new workout routine (although I confess was never 100% committed) which failed. I tried just cutting out junk food, which didn’t last past my next menstrual cycle. So I went back to what works for me: writing.

I journaled for a few months exploring the reason why I held on to this weight. Why was I manifesting heaviness? How did the pounds serve me? Was I protecting myself from the outside world in some way? If so, what was I afraid of?

This exploration paid off. Once I found the core reason for why I was manifesting weight (for protection) and told myself I’m ready to let that go, it began to dissolve. Of course, not overnight…but within a few months I was 20 pounds lighter, without a simple change to diet or exercise.

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I share this story because manifesting is a gift. If we believe in the premise that we are creating our lives, then we have to accept that we created all of it. No that wasn’t easy to hear when I was diagnosed with epilepsy at 23. But it was empowering to utilize when I healed myself at 25 (seizure free since!).

Manifesting is an invitation to really explore what it is we think about our worth, our experience of balance in joy and in uncomfortable growth. I remember when nearly every area of my life felt like it was breaking down: my relationships, my finances, my profession (or lack thereof at that time), my sense of self. Yet there was one place I felt strong, in my ability to parent. And knowing that I felt strong and capable in that helped me to realign and trust myself (and my angel team) to rebuild my life.

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Today my life is incredible.

I have an awesome partner who adores me. Cucumbers growing in my garden. Delightful spaces to be vulnerable with those close to me. A gorgeous home with nourishing crystals. Financial security I only imagined was possible a few years ago. A deepening sense of awe for my self and this beautiful journey. And a break-dance loving little boy who delights in reminding me how to play.

Now it’s you’re turn. Tag! What are you manifesting today?

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So I’m in California this week, first stop in San Francisco to visit my sister living her dream with her start-up GreenLid. Her subscription clients are loving her delicious & healthy green smoothies.
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Watching her do her magic whipping up fruits and kale into incredibly smooth creations was so inspiring. Mostly because I see how quickly she went from dreaming the dream, to living the dream and delivering for corporate clients like BandPage and Task Rabbit on a regular basis.

It’s inspiring because she envisioned, affirmed, held faith, and committed herself to the internal work of attracting the perfect combination of resources, people, and knowledge to feel confident in manifesting her dream.

It’s inspiring because she’s not done yet. Her dreams are getting bigger and expanding to providing the country with healthy food fast.

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I’m grateful for her and to watch her in action today. I feel like I’m cheering on an Olympic Athlete. And regardless of her winning the gold (which she surely will) she’s inspiring me to keep working towards my dreams too.

Who’s inspiring you?

Let’s just begin

Have you ever felt that inner tug to follow a dream that you’ve had for a long time, and have run out of excuses to not do anything to begin? The last few months I feel I have been running circles around the idea of why I’m not sharing my ideas about peace and I’ve finally decided to stop, be still and speak out.

That’s the reason for creating this blog. For the last three years I have been developing a book idea on the relationship between individual and international peace and the responsibility for each of us to re-imagine our beliefs about peace in order to create the world we say we want to live in. After a two year masters program and the birth of my first child, I’ve had ample opportunity to research, examine and PRACTICE many of these ideas. This process has been more challenging than I expected, with many sleepless nights, cyclical conversations and moments of doubt in the receptivity of this message. But with an increase of conflict around the world showing up as stress-induced diseases within individual bodies and stress-induced wars within individual states, I realize that this is the perfect time to suggest that we need to reexamine our ideas around peace.

I hope that this blog can be a digital space not only for me to share my perspective, but to hear yours as well. I welcome alternative views and questions, requesting only that this conversation remain one with a dialogical nature instead of a debate. There are plenty of online forums where you can argue with everyone else to prove you righteousness. Dialogue on the other hand, is about sharing opinions without attempting to convert others to think the same way. My book, in essence, was written with this principal of sharing an alternative view with the world and hoping that with personal application, it will prove to be an effective change mechanism to further establish sustainable peace on the planet.

Here’s to our collective transformation!